Loving when you think you can't anymore

Sometimes I catch myself trying to explain to children things I barely understand. How do I explain war, and differences in different wars. I know I have understood so much more with the little experiences I have had and Tim has shared. But it doesn't explain the amplitude of war and what soldiers went and are going through. My grandpa, great uncles, uncles, aunts, and may family members served but never talked. It was considered taboo in my home. But now being a caregiver has given me a different perspective. I will never truly understand but I can try better now than before. I deal with the repercussions of Tim's service every day. It has drove a wedge between us. He is so sensitive and blows up about so many things that should be a small fight to most couples. He reacts and is emotionally completely different from almost all men. I'm learning day by day to deal. But I am not so great at it, I will admit. A simple fight for most is WW3 in my home. I always try to talk or think of my mothers advice, she has always been the sense of reason in my life but she tries but is clueless on this subject. Although not her fault. I have reached out for support and I have done so much research it makes me sick. I just somedays wish for something normal and easy. Although god knows I have always hated both and strived for a more interesting life! i lift my worries up to him. This at this point is in god's hands and i can't control it.