Winter Blues

Haven't felt much motivation lately. Honestly I have felt down in the dumps a bit. Putting on weight, not wanting to work out, secluding myself, being cranky for no good reason, not doing things I usually enjoy. I have known the past few weeks that I am a little depressed. Tim pointed it out to me, but I couldn't seem to come out of it. Tell he got upset and felt unloved. I'm usually a clingy love obsessed freak so I understand his concern. I hate seeing Tim upset and concerned like that. I knew I needed to show him my love even if I wasn't feeling very lovey dovey. Tim also not feeling well the past few days kicked in my natural care taker instinct. I always wake up at 7:30 with Jasmine and send her off to school in the morning and than fall asleep on the couch to some show. The past few days hoping I don't have to move or be obligated to anything. Today was different. I got coffee, ate breakfast, watched my show, but today I had a smile while doing so. I have ambition while waiting for Tim to wake up and work out with me. Tim without even technically trying pulled me out of my winter blues. By pointing out himself feeling unloved and telling me it was not ok, I forced myself to love him and do things I enjoy with him. In the end making me happy again. I go through this I think every year, but usually lasts longer. I know I need a job or more of a social life, even though it never seems like the right time. I know I need to do what makes me happy. And sometimes it takes work to pursue this happiness. I will never understand how people can be happy being hermits all the time, although I do understand how nice it is to never deal with other people's drama. Man I never thought it was possible. Well happy Thursday morning, and have an amazing day!