Lent Vs. Anger

Today while shoveling my driveway I was thinking about Lent and fasting. As a child we would give up something for Lent and not eat meat on Fridays if I remember correctly. I have not done any of this in years. Well I hadn't gone to church in years. Just recently I started attending a wonderful church. It's not a Catholic church, like I grew up in, so i'm not sure how they follow Lent and if they have the same traditions. But I am thinking of going old school this year. Yes giving up meat on Friday. Also giving up something that is hard for me. So as I thought about this while shoveling, first thing that comes to mind is some type of unhealthy food. But honestly I don't eat all that unhealthy and I don't think that would be so hard. So as I have wrote about, this winter has been a personal struggle for me. Feeling distant, a little depressed, and finding my newest journey in life. So I think the hardest but best thing to give up for Lent would be anger and negativity. I have been unable to let a lot of things go or forgive much lately. I am letting this negativity control my life. It is time to move on and be happy. I have a wedding I am planning with a man I love so much, a great family, 3 healthy kids, and a home I can call my own. I look back to where I was last year to where I am now and it's been such a positive change. But I have been hurt by some people I love dearly, and I have an old demon that I have had to confront this year and it has been difficult. I'm sure this is why I hold onto so much anger. I need to forgive. I have prayed for months to forgive and have been angry with god because I can't seem to let go. So I am going to start with a smaller step. Giving up anger and negativity should help me to forgive and move on. So Lent starts in about 2 weeks. So I have 2 weeks to be angry than i'm giving it up cold turkey. I look so much better when i'm happy anyways. Lent is actually something I feel strongly that I need to participate in this year. I am in the spiritual position right now where I need fasting and prayer. I need a stronger relationship with god. Matthew 4:1-11, Jesus was sent into the wilderness by the Spirit. Where he fasted and prayed for 40 days. During his time there he was tempted by Satan and found clarity and strength to resist temptation. Afterwards, he was ready to begin his ministry. I don't want to be a minister but I want to resist satan and be closer to god. I think this has presented itself to me at the perfect time in my life and spiritual journey.